redhandprints (redhandprints) wrote in lostloveletters,

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Dear N.

  Dear N.,

Our story began one October's day, a few years ago. A lot has happened since then, we've both changed. I don't know when this happened. When you started to have this hold over me.

Everything you say, I want to hear. Everywhere you go, I want to be. Anything that's on your mind, I want to know. No matter what you do, there's something about you that makes me want to be your best friend. I know that if you let me in, I could be the best friend ever. I tell myself that I just want to go back to the way things used to be, when we were closer friends but I can't help feeling that there's something more. Love. Am I in love with you? Or am I just in love with the idea of you? Maybe it's actually just the friendship thing. I don't know anymore. All I know is I've never experienced something like this with anyone else and it's killing me inside.

I need to be your friend. I know you would understand everything that's going on in my life right now. If I told you about these feelings, I just know you would be able to help me figure out what the hell is happening. I wish you would let me in. Friendship is all I want. Is all I need. You are completely and utterly oblivious to the fact that you have such a devastating effect on me. When you're near, I'm rendered speechless. I suddenly become self-conscious and my heart races. It's not love, I tell myself. I just need that friendly affection and attention you give to B. It would complete my life.

I could be the most understanding person. I'm just waiting until the moment you realize how amazing our friendship could be.

Yours forever, and always,
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